
what's worse than hating urself .. when the ones u cherish the most think that u're no good 4 anything .. when ur own friends start 2 look down on u .. when reality keeps slapping u .... ~ yet u don't fight
I've been cracking 4 the past 2 years .. I tried 2 stand on my feet, & instead i fall deeper & deeper
I hate it when they lecture me, i look into their eyes & smile peacefully .. telling myself do they really think i'm dead inside .. i know all these things .. i know myself better than they do .. i know what's good 4 me & what's not .. no need 2 make it worse by sayying these cruel words
they keep sayying why r u this cold ?! .. well I'm not, i'm not ! .. if they knew me well, they'll know what a good pretender i am, with a laugh every1 thinks that i'm a careless, happy creature .. ugghh it's waaaay more than that !!
it's weird how lil silly things make u face the truth
I need 2 wake up .. take care of myslef .. they won't be there for me 4ever !
my health ~ my education ~ my parents ... those are my priorities now
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starting from now, I'M A NEW PERSON