teehee ~

money money money .. i've always wanted 2 start my own business .. somthing 2 make easy money
~ a friend told me that i have a smart investing mind haha (A) .. so i've been reading about FOREX .. & inshallah i'll be working on that during the summer .. i'm gonna be rich =D lol
~ besides, me & my friends want 2 have a cupcake shop, or it's a coffee shop now i guess 8-)

seriously, it's boring graduating from a college & stick in one place 4 the rest of ur life :/

haha .. i think i'm that kinda girl who doesn't mind marrying an old man 4 his money >_< which brings me 2 ... last week king 3abdullah ♥ was here @ dhahran it was like being in one of those extreme make over programs .. everything went 2 wow in few days .. one day it took me 75 mins 2 get the uni where it usually takes 15 mins : .. but i was excited & smilling the whole time, seeing saudi flags everywhere, car accidents & angry ppl teehee yea, my sister participated in ARAMCO 75th anniversary celebration .. she was on tv, she even danced infront of 3aboOodty .:*_*:. yesssss i'm jealous .. i've always felt like i'm somehow special .. maybe i'm his lost princess, who knows .. or i might charm him with my beauty the moment he sees me :$





hehe .. that's her over there lol ..




yesterday i went 2 that place .. 2 see my sis performing that's where he ♥ stood giving his speech ehhee .:*_*:. i was there, i even touched the mic .. wanted 2 hug the whole thing but i didn't want 2 look like an idiot *~*

Thoughts ~

what's worse than hating urself .. when the ones u cherish the most think that u're no good 4 anything .. when ur own friends start 2 look down on u .. when reality keeps slapping u .... ~ yet u don't fight

I've been cracking 4 the past 2 years .. I tried 2 stand on my feet, & instead i fall deeper & deeper

I hate it when they lecture me, i look into their eyes & smile peacefully .. telling myself do they really think i'm dead inside .. i know all these things .. i know myself better than they do .. i know what's good 4 me & what's not .. no need 2 make it worse by sayying these cruel words

they keep sayying why r u this cold ?! .. well I'm not, i'm not ! .. if they knew me well, they'll know what a good pretender i am, with a laugh every1 thinks that i'm a careless, happy creature .. ugghh it's waaaay more than that !!

it's weird how lil silly things make u face the truth

I need 2 wake up .. take care of myslef .. they won't be there for me 4ever !

my health ~ my education ~ my parents ... those are my priorities now
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starting from now, I'M A NEW PERSON

Flaws

tagged by PINKISH 2 write about bad things in me .. hehe



1. I don't appreciate what I have .. simply ma fee shay yemlee 3eeny :/

2. I'm a bit greedy .. but umm who's not !

3. I start smiling when I'm in serious sitiuations .. like when I'm being yelled at, or someone is giving me an advice .. & the thing is that they think i'm making fun of them or not taking it seriously, but that's just the way i deal with these kinda things

4. my sleeping times are always messed up .. & it affects my life !

5. I love wasting my time .. I can spend hours, days doing absolutly nothing !!

6. sometimes I don't pay attention when ppl are talking to me .. it's like they're telling a story that i'm so not intrested in hearing it .. so i just nod my head & pretend that i'm lsning

7. i ENJOY pissing ppl .. the ones who i really love lol

8. i judge ppl .. i try not 2 .. but i can't help it


wow i'm such a bad person :/